Psy..pscho!!

I'm in psychiatric rite now ..completing my 3rd week, with no actual one patient that i clerk. Hmm, i think i have this initial adjustment disorder when entering a new posting.

Psy, an interesting field, truly love d cases d theory behind it, it involve lot of emotion and d world of marvellous discoveries, it involve one of the "beautiful" organ in human, d brain. Entering psy, i hav to admit, is a real challenge. I'm still have this anxious feeling. People say i did well..or even better, but sometime i felt like i was pretending to be that what ever i did.

Hmm, i barely sit down with one patient and clerk them, have d anxiety disorder thinking about it. Hmm....anyway really hope i can do something about this..i can't carry on avoiding them...they need me ...hahahaha....see d psychotic features in me dah kuar dah...

being bipolar(hahaha...as most people like to put it)....i think i just add several other diagnosis to myself....Adjusment Disorder due to Anxiety of being a Psy Student, with some features of psychosis....hmm...a nice case for a case write up.....and remind me ...i should stop typing as i need to complete my case write up ..before flying to where the sun rise....

p/s:flight of ideas.....ohh ..i must stop this....

Ortho and the three minor!!

Ortho ...was a roller coaster ride for most people ..it was ..yupp it was...but i just got d excitement d last week of it....hmm..yeah u can read about my stressing state of being clueless down there....i was so blur ...i nearly cried inside....not because it was difficult but i was empty....but allah is almighty ...he gave me the "feel"...and alhamdulillah...the result is out...and being the top....is truly gorgeous....alhamdulillah...

ENT, OPth and Anes ..three minors that i find fascinating....hmm...not sure when d result will be out ...but i enjoyed d journey ...clueless and blurness ..is part of the posting...compare ngan orang lain...li memang laa paling bodoh n pemalas sekali...yupp..i did worried ....hmm...but ..i guess ..i started to learn not everybody is d same ....and i'm totally weird...

ohh tipu laa pulak kalau tak tahu result ....as my lovely brother in law, is one of my anest lecturer...i know my result ....hmm..it is a good result ...but ...i thought i can score better .....not sure what happened ....but as all the other put it .."Haey dah okay sangat ...dah laa tuh..nak apa lagi...bersyukur..."..yupp...even Ai Peng and Yin Ping....got d same result....(nobody know d result actually...hahaha lucky evil me)

hmm...Basic life support course ..was awesome. With astro recording at the same time. Acting!!!..hahhaa....komputer mati pun berlakon jugak..buat malu jer hahhaa.

Hmm, opth and ENT was during ramadhan. Kesain tengok patient takut bila kita masukkan barang dalam telinga dorang "Batal puasa ker?" ...common question...hmmm anesth is after raya...2 week posting ...nearly everyday ...i went out to evrywhere ....went for movies three times in that 2 week....hmm...i must be really crazy at that time!!

adi is going back today...

Nurhadi, another AMSEP student from indonesia. He is actually not a student anymore ...dah Dr dah pun. A future O&G specialist...arrived here just several days before raya ...that amazed me ...as li takkan gi elective maser nak raya..(but looking back..i did went to taiwan for ac onference ..maser raya haji....hmm....orang ngah berparty ..li was upstairs feeling quite weird)

Very hardworking guy...we had our Jalan Tar walk on raya night and had some "celup-celup"...i think ..banyak dah dia dah buat kat malaysia nih ..even more dari apa yang li dah buat ..yupp that what we will do when we are so called "traveller".....hmm...hehe

Amazingly, her girl did stopped over here...to look around ..and what alovely lady she is ..but i missed d chance to have dinner with her father at collesium cafe as my father suddenly felt il...hmm..

Hope he gets a lot of experience being here in malaysia....all d best for Dr Nurhadi!! :)

p/s:going to send him to KLIA...most likely...

oohiyo ...2004 :) :( :_

sedar tak sedar 2004 will tutup tirai...curtains fall...hmm..reviewing back...a year dah pass ..and looking at what happened and had been archieved ...have to say ...2004 a year full of dramas, filled with relationship...established and broken...soured and sugared ...tears of happiness

nonetheless sadness...depression and manic episodes flunctuating in a rapid cycle with remission barely seen.....missed someone i truly treasured....

travelling..managed to do a number of it..meeting new peoples..breathing a different air...learning new cultures ...experiencing a different touch ..hearing a different language ...smelling exotic smell....and i'm grateful for that...

Leaving my only and d only and d only house i know ....that is what happen by the end of this year....growing, crueling, hurting, exploring, ...this house is everything that i called home ....but i have to move on...we have to move on...development is just too fast....we are not that modern hippy people...going back to beside d jungle....a new building will be call Adli's home...

Medical and broadcasting ...things in my life ....have a vision what will happened...medical wise ....looking forward for a great future...broadcasting,...it is just a beginning

But the best thing ever happened in my life....do happen this year....never know this feeling before ....ARIFF HAKIMI....he stepped in my life....and he will be part of my life.....he is ultimately d best thing ever happened (till now)....hmm....yupp.......he is....he is...

I started my 2004 in Port Dickson...and will end it in Osaka.....a new year will come......